as a lifelong pack-rat, i know exactly how you feel. aside from going to school and back, i've only moved once, and stuff piles up. i'd really loved to be organized, but it's just clutter everywhere. my whole family is the same way.
it's awful that you've had such traumatic cleaning experiences -- enough that you'd equate cleaning with death! i think one reason for my cluttery tendencies is that i don't want to get rid of anything that defines me. who else would understand the significance of these mismatched salt and pepper shakers? (which my friend malia stole for me from an ihop, when we couldn't hang out because she had to see her father.) or this wilted corsage? (not from prom, but from the girl scouts' father-daughter dance.) it's like anything i throw out destroys not a piece of myself, but a piece of the person i used to me. and if i don't remember who i used to be, who will?
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good luck!
Date: 2004-03-31 11:26 pm (UTC)it's awful that you've had such traumatic cleaning experiences -- enough that you'd equate cleaning with death! i think one reason for my cluttery tendencies is that i don't want to get rid of anything that defines me. who else would understand the significance of these mismatched salt and pepper shakers? (which my friend malia stole for me from an ihop, when we couldn't hang out because she had to see her father.) or this wilted corsage? (not from prom, but from the girl scouts' father-daughter dance.) it's like anything i throw out destroys not a piece of myself, but a piece of the person i used to me. and if i don't remember who i used to be, who will?