Fatigue Syndrome

[dampscribbler]

I've got some sort of virus, or at least that's what it feels like. I'm tired and headachy, although not intensely so. On a scale of 0 to 10 - 0 being well and normal, and 10 being deathbed-sick, it's like a 3. The worst part of it is, my energy is now so limited that I have to skip the things I really want to do (like this morning's writing group) in order to have the energy to do the things I have to do -- buy groceries, cook meals, feed myself.

This seems to be an autumn pattern for me, I get some run-down thing that upsets my stomach and makes it hard for me to live life normally for a while. I think I will call it Recurrent Fatigue Syndrome. I wonder if there isn't a virus that lives in me all the time, and takes over when the weather changes in the fall. (The weather changed last week from 50's to 30's and 40's, and we had our first snow. Two days later this thing hit me.) I am not at peace with this. I want to have energy for both the things I must do and the things I wish to do.

Which brings me to NaNoWriMo. I'm done. Last week I got excited again about the novel I've been working on for a year, now. NaNo was a good break from it, butI really just want to work on my novel again. Considering how little energy I have to spread around right now, my NaNovel just isn't important enough to justify taking time and eneregy from my primary novel. I always learn something valuable from NaNoWriMo. I've learned some things this year, and I feel grateful for that. Now it's time to move on.

I hope to be back to eating normally by Thursday. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday of the year.

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[hhw]

do you know about seasonal affective disorder?

http://www.sada.org.uk/

[dampscribbler.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes, I definitely have that, but I think of it as something that bothers me more between late January and May. That reminds me, though, I was going to order a light for myself this week. I tried all last winter to find a doctor to help me and never did. I guess I'll be treating myself and hoping for the best. Thanks for the link.

This Fall thing I get always starts with a digestive disturbance. I have to eat very carefully for a week or so, then I get back to whatever passes for normal. Until January or Feb., then the SAD kicks in. Last year I didn't get it. Aside from going to France, I don't know what I did differently, but I sure would like to know.